... on the blogging front.
I don't like silence.
I'm ...
... a people person.
... a word person.
... a talkative person.
... a writer.
... a speaker.
Yet ... day after day ... my blog continues to sit in silence.
Sometimes ...
... silence is due to busyness.
... silence is due to things too difficult to discuss.
... silence is due to things that just cannot be discussed.
Sometimes ...
... things cannot be discussed because they would give
too much personal information about someone else.
... things cannot be discussed because you have been
sworn to confidentiality.
... things cannot be discussed because the time isn't right, yet.
Yes, I could easily claim ... "I've been busy.", which I have.
What mother of 13 isn't busy every day of her life?
Yet, my busyness is not the cause of my current silence.
The silence on my blog the past few weeks
has been caused by the collision of several
unrelated events and situations ...
some good ... some bad ... and some very very bad.
The silence on my blog has been caused by ...
... an absolute lack of words to explain the emotional
rollercoaster that I am riding all day every day.
... the physical inability to even breathe at times,
because of unimaginable pain over a situation.
(The re-occurring feeling of being
kicked in the stomach by a horse.)
... a time of crying out to God for strength and wisdom.
The silence on my blog has been caused by a combination
of recent situations that happened to hit our family all in
the same week.
Situation #1 ... has us humbly seeking wisdom for an
unimaginable parenting situation.
Situation #2 ... has us praying earnestly for a work situation.
Situation #3 ... has us seeking God for exciting changes that
may be headed in our direction.
While #1 and #2 are VERY difficult situations, either one of which could and have shaken us to the core ... #3 has been able to give us hope amidst the darkness.
When #1 and #2 are bringing us spiraling down ... all we need to do is talk about #3 to re-focus. Obviously, #1 and #2 are things that Jim and I must talk about (but only with each other); however, we are so very thankful that the Lord has given us #3 to talk about at the same time.
I'm so sorry that this note seems cryptic.
I wish I could share more details,
and hope to share #3 with you in the near future.
However, in the meantime, I want to ask for your prayers.
#1 Please pray for the Parenting Situation ...
... for wisdom from the Lord for each step that must be taken.
... for people/resources to help us navigate this new journey.
... for understanding for all of our children.
(Remember the poem I wrote last week? This is what it was about.)
#2 Please pray for the Work Situation ...
... for the truth to be unveiled.
... for honesty on all sides.
... for people to take responsibility for what they've done.
#3 Please pray for the possible Changes
that might be headed our way.
... for continued guidance from the Lord.
... for open doors as we walk into unchartered territory.
... for peace for every family member.
Dear Bloggy Friends,
Thank you ...
... for being there for me,
even when I can't share every detail.
... for faithfully praying for me and my family,
even though many of us have never met.
... for following my blog,
even when it is silent.
Laurel,
ReplyDeleteI noticed your silence and have been thinking about you. I think there is a lot of extra silence out there in our adoption community right now for many different reasons...
I am praying for your situations for the guidance to help you navigate through this difficult time. I look forward to seeing what number 3 may have in store for your family.
Laurel, I am so sorry and will be praying for your family. I have also been thinking about you.
ReplyDeleteLaurel,
ReplyDeleteI find comfort in knowing that God is not surprised by anything going on in your family. I find comfort in knowing that He turns beauty from ashes. I find comfort in knowing that no matter what the situation is or how bad it may seem - His plans are good for us and filled with a promise of peace and rest as we trust in Him.
Praying over you right now and sending warm hugs!
If there is anything I can do to help please let me know!
Love in Him,
Jill
Laurel,
ReplyDeleteI second what Jen said. I noticed your unusual silence and prayed that it was only business that was keeping you from your blog. Yes, there has also been a change in the adoption community lately....I'm mostly talking about Ethiopian adoption here, because that is what I have witnessed. Ethiopia and the Ethiopian adoption process seems to be getting worse for many reasons and people are getting frustrated and so broken hearted.
I'll be praying for you, my dear bloggy friend, that God would hold your family in His hands, comfort, strengthen, and give you peace.
Wendy
I have been praying for you, sensed in my spirit more in the quietness of your blog.
ReplyDeletePraying for all situations and peace in the midst of the storm, as only can be found in the arms of Jesus.
Delight in Him-
Donna
Laurel, going right now to a silent place to get on my knees and pray. :) T
ReplyDeleteYour family is in my prayers Laurel. You are one of the strongest women I know, and your faith will see you through...
ReplyDeletePraying over all three of your situations. Let me know if you need anything.
ReplyDeleteLife has been busy here too, so I haven't checked in like I normally do. As the Lord presses you on my heart, I will take note and pray.
ReplyDeletePraying for you and your family during this hard journey. You are such an amazing mother, and always an incredible encouragement to us all. I am always so thankful and encouraged by your words and comments...I truly mean that. Hope you find peace in the midst of the stress & worry. Keep us updated if you can :).
ReplyDeleteDefinitely in prayer for you and your family for all three. Excited to find out about #3 and hopeful for #1 and #2. Praying for clarity of His way for you.
ReplyDeleteWow...Dear sister...Dear God, I just pray that You would remind Laurel of your soveriegnty and that you have ultimatly allowed these situations to happen, but that along with them you have a plan that will look beautiful in the end, even though we don't think so or feel there's no hope, there is...I pray God that she would "be still and know that You are God"...Carry her through this valley with your grace and may she rejoice in her suffering knowing that it is for your glory and her joy in the end...Help her to endure and to not lose heart...May she glorify you in the midst of her pain, knowing this life doesn't last forever and is but a vapor...Thank you dear God...In your name~Amen
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