A Very Difficult Task

Every step of The Crisis has been difficult.

Some steps lead to more darkness and despair.

Other steps give a glimmer of hope.

Yesterday ... I took a very big step.

It was a very difficult step.

Yet, at the same time, it brought a little hope.

Yesterday ... I contacted C.H.A.S.K.

Christian Homes And Special Kids.

Yesterday ... I wrote up a profile of Jacob.

The good, the bad, and a bit of the very bad.

Basically ... it was like writing a classified ad.

Oh how my heart broke as I wrote it.

Yes ... we are looking for a new family for Jacob.

Everyone that is walking this journey with us,

agrees that it would be best to disrupt his adoption.

This is not fun!

We want to be his parents.

We want him to be our son.

We know that it would be best for both Jacob

and his little sisters, to separate them.

We wish it were not so.

We wish we could take away this part of his African past.

We wish we could erase all the pain in his young life.

We wish we could reverse the poor choices he has made.

But we can't ...

We can't pretend that things have not happened.

We can't pretend that there is no risk to keep him here.

We can't pretend that we can meet all his needs.

We can't pretend.

We believe that the Lord led us to adopt Jacob.

We believe that the Lord wants us to now release him.

We believe that the Lord will lead us to the right family ...

... a family that will love him despite his weaknesses.

... a family that can help him learn to set boundaries.

... a family that can walk him through the tough stuff.

... a family without little children that will be at risk.

If you know such a family,

please pass along the information found at C.H.A.S.K.

http://www.chask.org/waitingchildren.htm

And, please continue to pray for us ...

... for wisdom.

... for patience.

... for guidance.

... for unconditional love.

Thank you ...

... for loving us.

... for supporting us on this difficult journey.

... for continuing to pray for us.